Not the most encouraging way to start a blog post is it? But as I have found out this week…it is the truth.
Now to be fair, I did fall (or did I jump 🙂 ) earlier this week, but even b4 that I was stumblin and sputterin. I reached my short term goal a day early, who knows maybe that sense of accomplishment took the wind out of my sails. Or, maybe it was just 5 weeks is a long time. Who knows but this week has been a doozy.
I am not quitting, and I am not saying it hasn’t been worth it, it has. Lord, has it ever. I feel better than I have in years. But I am just exhausted. Clients have kept me bust, school makes me feel like I’ve bitten off more than I can chew, kids, family, constantly thinking about every bite of food (or drink as the case may be) constantly battling temptations and crqavings , slogging thru the psychology behind all of this, and figuring out my new identity while dealing with my past one; it all has taken a toll on me mentally.
It feels like those middle miles of a marathon or the duldrums of sailing lore. I know they will pass, the weight loss will return, and so will the spark and motivation. Till then its just quiet; quiet and hard. Where are you, second wind?!
Those of you so inclined, pray. I know “its not by might, nor by power but by my spirit says the Lord”
I know that in my heart but need to feel it in my spirit, mind, and body. I have taken a three day respite with my bride and escaped to the mountains.
I think we both needed to recharge. I am taking the thre days off from exclusively juicing. But not from the reboot. I am just going back to the eating and juicing of the entry phase. Still all fruit and veg, but some solid food in the evening and a salad at midday or fresh fruit for breakfast; that sort of thing.
I had to do something to deal with the cravings, and to try to reset my system and to refocus my efforts (and hopefully kickstart my weightloss again). Perhaps at 396 pounds (boy that’s nice to say) I have been consuming too few calories for too long. Maybe I’m graspimg at straws but the cravings have returned as bad or worse than days 7-10.
Is any of you have been on an extended juice fast is this normal? I swear it took all the energy I had to not go get a super sized order of fries today. I didn’t and I have my juicer and spare bottles with me on my retreat.
The plan is to reset and refocus for the stretch run. I think I can hear the crowds as I approach the city limit signs I can do this, I can make this…it is a worthy goal and I will proceed.
Health is around the corner. Victory in sight. The same reasons I had for starting are still valid. I still have no other options. I can either fight to regain my health or I can die. I Love life and I love MY life it is worth these temporary mild afflictions. My God has caled me to health, to fullness, and to abundant life. How can I not go on…restore my strength.
Juice On; Join the Journey.